I feel so weak when I cry. I try to do it in isolation always so that I don’t force a negative aura to anyone else. But I really couldn’t hold in my feelings yesterday so I asked my mom to come to my side and I just let out everything. And then my dad came too. And just…*sigh*
What do you tell that significant other when they don’t think your relationship’s significant when all it’s been to you has just been an unbelievable blessing?
Since I was younger, I always felt like I was meant to be hurt. Like it was just inevitable. Now, I still have this mindset that I was set free from cancer because of God’s grace. I always feel like something bad’s gonna happen to me like I’ll get hit by a car because I’ve already been saved once, like this time I’m meant to fall for sure. Maybe this is that bad thing..
who knows though
I just feel like I’ve always been undeserving of everything and I’ve never been good enough, and the way this break-up ended just validates how unworthy I am.